It impossible for me to force myself to sleep now. My brain doesnt just keep going but it keeps going on about how F’d this all is and makes me want you. So dumb. I dont get how i miss you when you pull S like this. Why do i want that. F it.
I was all about “No New Friends” until now, cause thats all i got.
She doesnt even care about what i do to myself. She prolly stoaked thats im suffering. Lets be real. She prolly siked that im hurting. Cause i know i F’ed up and ima have to live with it. She dont care bout me no more. She care bout you
But i fucked it all up to begin with